War of MIND and HEART.....

It's the war of the heart and mind,

the thoughts of mind , pains of heart,

they are inexpressible

known to none...

It's screams are silent,

heared by none.

But still they cry for someone,

To hear , To care, To understand..

The mind armed with memories and thoughts,

The heart armed with feelings and pain...

The heart beats with a sound, announcing the begin of a battle...

The mind fiddles back in its own memories, back-forcing the feelings aroused...

To make itself strong,

Those memories speak,those feelings sense...

Those days,those times,those hours,

seconds spent thinking.

Hours lost remembering.

Days gone regretting...

Bringing back timless feelings of

love and Care, Jealous and Envy , Hate and Madness...

Its the war of mind and heart,

known to none, how it hurts...

The memories of mind and pains of heart.

Supressing each other

The memories of tears and feelings of love.

Fighting each other over and over...

The faults of love, created memories

they hurt now..

Days that were once injoyed,

now ,never wanting to be remembered...

Waiting, time to just pass bye..

memories giving time to feelings to die..

Its just a matter of time,

how the feelings of once love,

now converted into carlessness, wanting to be ignored....

The love that was once pronounced,

is now not wanting to be noticed...

The battle WELL-FOUGHT, leaving

"MEMORIES ALWAYS TO PREVAIL" 

(p.s - my first and last poem i guess.... don kno what made me write this....had written it really really really long time back...eventually had even forgotten about it.... thanx to a friend of my , who during shifting of my things came across this piece of paper and encouraged me to write it down in my blog...
now since its my first poem , i bet it would be having a hell lots of mistakes.... :) :)...nevermind, i will definitely learn from them ;)...
Gud nyt world )

MA AS SALAMA.....

*SAVE ENRGY*

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O MY GOD................ its been like ages,centuries,decades,era's that i have been here lol...phew phew...have been pretty busy lately...stuff's have like got so onto my mind and see its the last  day of  June, the six month is to an end and it still semms that new year just went by ...hmph.....

Had visited Sri Ramachandra Medical College for a recent fest .. MIDAS...don know bout the culturals but the college was like simply awsome...i loved every corner of it...brilliant greenary....thats the only thing i could and wanted to see...it's an almost 25 years old college and i loved it..it even had a memorial , could not actually find out the name..hmmm... (p.s anyone from SRM-C, do let me kno :) )

The two day fest was a brilliant chill-out just before the exams...a good friend of my and fellow commentor just got the *Crowning Glory*  title for the ramp walk held... :),,,her treat is still left..lolzzz....

Examz are nearing and everything on earth has just got so intresting, even counting the holes on the wall and counting the number of ants eyeing my cadbury gets intresting :) :)....WOW.....lolzz....this is the peak time when even 19+ adults wish they had a genie to help them out or some kind of invisible gel to flick  of the question papers...or to have a 2GB memory card to fit up n their head.....lolz..... our imagination just gets wilder by the hour...hheheheheheeee

Cookies....almost time to get back to my last-night-abondened books... ITS FUN STUDYING :<  (com'on its the only way i can motivate myself ..lolz....)

Have a great day friends,..take lods of care..spread tonnes of love....
*SAVE ENERGY*
MA AS SALAMA ;)

"Coz i'll be der in the back of ur  mind...from the day we met to very last time....it'z jus to bad, u already had the best days,the best days of u r lifeee...." @ kellie Pickler.... : D

{p.s one of my ALL TIME FAVOURITE , itz been for months on my list and it still rocks .. anytime anywhere , itz always onnnn. Just thought to share :) }..

cheerz... Ma as Salama....

*SAVE ENERGY,  DO U R BIT : D*

Girls Take - Career or Love

Just after the evening attendence, a small gupshup with friends resulted in a heated disscussion about one of the  most discussed topic for fun actually.. the question WAD WOULD U CHOOSE B/W U R CAREER AND YOUR LOVE? (Note : This question was asked among gals )

I was randomly fired with bazokas when i actually answered  MY DREAM JOB... it has been my dream, my passion to become a Pilot since the age of 15, i have been so mad about them that  there has hardly been a day i have not thought about them.... and for me its like something more than life and so when this question was in front of me it obviously had to be my dream job but seeing the other side of it i wont be having my love by myside and then wad would i do with my job... wads the use of all the happiness when i dont have any one to share it with.... but oppurtunity does not come always and when it comes u better grab it...once u kick it and  then u just get kicked for the rest of ur entire entire entire life.....

when asked the same question to a group friends of my .. 90% - Love , 10 % - Dream Job :( :(.. lolz... wow the world is growing a fonder place..people have actually started loving ..hehehehehee.. am glad for such people from the deepest part of my heart but what would the guys choose if they were given a choice b/w their dream job  and their love of their life..... i wonder if they would choose their love..afterall job is also an important part to survive, u cant just survive on love....wadever it is i guess i would still stick around with MY DREAM JOB... : D : D....

what says guys out there? what would be u r choice ??

 (p.s its just a simple question..a plain simple question , no if's and but's...just the answer.

Its just all in the game..no hard feeling )

keep smiling..have tonnes of fun..take lods of care.. spread love...gud nite.... Ma As Salaama...

SAVE ENERGY

Back to somewhere.....

elo guyss.. finally back to this where i am made to belong for the next 3 more years..hmmmph...packed up my things and wraped up my holidays to get back at college till my next holidays which may probably be in august if luck favours......... 

had the moments of my life back home ... landed in chennai at around 2:30am reached hostel by 4 somethng and the first good good news - my warden is on leave. Cherry on cake ,the substitue warden had left this place forever and forever and forever ..... lolzzzz...

Was somewhere kind of glad,just a little, to see my colg after 20 days around. The cyclone Laila was pretty  successful in destroying some parts of our college but but but it was not strong enough to move the college lolz....i wished i got up one day and find that a sweet cyclone called XXX had displaced our college massively ..hehehehehe..

on a serious note , as usual have tonnes of work pending and millions of xms coming up , so so so so will not be able to update my blog that reguarly :(..will miss this place big time but in the mean while will try to give my best for my coming exams ( my dad was pretty clear on this point , i am my daady's gal u c) ...

so friends,my best pals, my humble hearts till next time have loads of fun , take tonnes of care and spread kilos of love ;)... wish me luck..take care..addios...

  

and ya had recently attended some arabic classes back home and found out that its not MASALAM its actually Ma- As-Salaama..

so here i go MA AS SALAAMA :) KEEP SMILING..

*SAVE ENERGY PLSSSS...*

Time to collect my memories...

hey world..hmmm...actually it almost time tht i get into bed buutttttttt ...don know why still wide wide awake..have no important work goin on either..the entire house is almost spooky with every one already fast asleep. Had actually been trying to get some time for myself and i guess now is it.... : D

Thinking of the past few days, life has given me every reason to smile for,every reason to live . Two weeks of my wondeful vacations are almost to the end...days just passed by in a blink of a eye ..don wanna leave this place. Gone through all my photographs that were taken once upon a time..longed for that time to come back...though i did not meet many of my friends,realized that i need my own space somewhere, somewhere i can be me..where i dont have to care for others........

Almost 1:30 am over her...spoke with a close friend of my and having a bowl of some kind of pumpkin sweet that mom made specially for me (will miss her dishes dearly) :(...not tired nywayz just trying to kill time... hmm...weekend finally, have some kind of ouitng plans for tomorrow and i am very much sure that it would work out coz its my mom and dad who planned it and not me..lol...

fine friends..love u all..take loads of care...have tones of fun...happy weekend....take care..gud nyt..bye bye..

*SAVE ENERGY, u would not regret one day *....

MASALAMA

Passing by the primate area one day,a zoo attender happens to notice a chimpanzee sitting on a rock with an open book in either hands, looking first at one and then at the another.

Upon closer examination he identifies the book as :The Bible and Darwin's "Origin of Species". Curious, he asks the chimp- "whats with the books?"

The chimp replies "I'm trying to decide wheather I'm my brothers keeper or my keepers brother...

Missing School life all over again..

Mornin Folks....just heared itz RAINING in chennai..WAD??????????????????....u see,even chennai can't live without me any longer :D..even the skies have taken to crying when i am offf..lolz....okies that was my version of *WHY IS IT RANING IN CHENNAI*..an other reason can probably be that there's some kind of cyclone nearby ..hmmm...Global warming is taking itz toll already...cyclone's in summer...News even have it that Fishes might become as extinct as the  dinosaurs by 2050.. i dont eat fish nor am i a fish-saver but yep i can do my share of avoiding water pollution.... : D..i bet even my college would support me with the GO GREEN slogan.Its all over the college already....lolzzzzz

Just back from my school..the same school where i had spent almost 5 years ( 8-12 ) and was glad to see the same corridors the same classrooms the same tables and chairs and was pretty lucky enough to see the same teachers...could not help but cry cry and cry...yep i did that... it all just made me so sick that i died to get back to the same school ...itz the first time i wish i had a time machine not that i  wanted to travel to the future but i wanted to get back to the past.......pppppssssssssssssssssssssssssss.............................

A cup of coffee at the canteen made me feel a bit better...some where deep down in my heart was glad that i got a chance to meet eveyone again. Thinking of meeting..have great plans for the next one week and after that back to india-back to cheenai-back to college  :( 1 week of my vacation is almost done...did absolutely nothing other then meeting relatives. The best part,i got gifts :D :D :D :D...two lovely pairs of shoes....i love shoes and the gifts spared me the thought of hunting for new shoes this season....Lalala lla llaaaa lalalala llllaaaaa....heheheheheee

okies..did not have my B'fast yet...stomach is grumbling all over again..should say - my appetite has grown since i  came back home...bbblllleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..

k guys..have a great time..to all my friends back in chennai injoy the awsom rain...take loads of care..spread love..cheers..byeeeeeee byeee till next time

MASALAMA..

Feel Like Home....

hey friends...very gooooooooooooood moooooooooornig to every one out there...lazy morning , no idea why i got up so early while i am vactioning ;) lets simply say my bed just kicked me awake : D..

Finally found my home all for myself after a loooonnnggggg lllloooooonnnnggggg time...dad left to work ,mom to duty sis and bro off to school...{one of the reason why i got up so early i guess ; ) }..

Now since mom left early leaving me to starve :( :(  {No, she's not that bad, she was just in a rush today} somehow made up some kind of edible b'fast ...should say, have totally lost the technique of cooking : 0 for more dissappointment i can hardly remember when was the last time i made omlette..so the result - ended up having a burnt omlette with roasted sanwhich :( :( . Nevermind it just reminds me that i have to remind my mom "I DON KNO HOW TO COOK"  : D...

Since no one is there for eyeballing me i took up the total advantage to become my version of Sherlock Holmes : D : D...investigated the entire house..every nook every corner was under my vigiliance..heheeheheheheheheee...and believe me i came up with nothing...ahhh nevermind afterall i am jsut a begginer..

one thing that i really enjoyed diggin out was my mom wardrobe ( Gals are really gud at this :D ) was actually stunned to see the number of collections of sarees my mom has actually collected from the last two years..MARVELLOUS...was pretty short of time to check out every saree,so picked up my favourite colours and they were BEAUTIFUL...loved it..will try asking my mom for 2 or 3 of them or perhaps all of them...lolzzz...

kicked almost 3 hours fidgiting with my mom's possessions..suddenly just gave a turn and looked at the terrific condition of the entire room, spent the rest 2 hours cleaning up :( :( ...

*phew* *phew*

Sorted out everything and winded up myself with My Cup Of Tea (Yea itz Tea and not Coffee this time ) and My Blog finally..still my tummy grumbles..i am hungry..thinking of digging up the fridge,jut pray tht i dont end up messing the kitchen-the morning episode was enough to let myself know that the kitchen is not my area of expertise : D... ordering from PIZZA HUT seems a good idea , gotto dig up The Yellow Pages. I doubt if people still use the Yellow Pages to find out a phone no. , I bet my dad dosen't. He's already aided with some kind of modern gadgets *zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz*...i guess i should just kill time and wait for my mom to come and get me something edible to eat ....yea i guess i will go with the last option.....

Right now finding some good templates for my blog...missing my friends too..have some kind of calm plans for the evening like....... walk at the beach......or a silent Bar-B-Q wid family orrrrrr orrrrr orrrrrrr Long Drive.....no idea how far its gonna be succesful *fingers-crossed*...lets c...

Wokay guys..thatz all from my side, no matter wadever i do my stomach is not gonna stop making weird nioses..take lods of care..have bulks of fun...spread love..keep smiling...Adiosss...

: D : D : D : D : D : D : D : D : D

*SAVE ENERGY*

I'm loving it... : D

heylooo...i am wide awake and feel like heaven in my  very first breath..itz awsome..i'm loving every bit of it..everything is changed but it seems still the same for me....

Guys i am home.. finally ..the journey was great...had travelled overseas ALONE  for the first time and i injoyed my own space ..was scarey initially but just followd  where my other fellow passengers were goin so i kind of learnt a lot of travelling tips : D : D : D.( My Advice : Travell light )...the flight awakened the slept pilot back in me ..i wanna become a pilot :(..reallllyyyyyyyyy : (

Nywyaz..parents were a bit late to pick me up thus giving me abundant time to check out the nearby surrounding..everything was the same... : D..

Mom dad arrived..mom had grown a bit thin,ovsly i was away for two years  she misses me ;)..Dad..awwwwww a bit old ..Sis :D gwad she's tall and she has grown her hair.. BRO : D : D...everything is same just the small difference is he speaks a better english now, he no longer fits in my lap to sleep, he understands my instructions far better, has stopped crying all the time, not that scraed of the dark , he loves going school and  HE REMEMEBR'S ME  : ) : ) : ) *more facts to be discovered* .. 

Everything seems perfect now..got to see my bed (glad that its still there) ,my pillow ,my wardrobe everything is there just its places are changed and i dont care untile there r there so itz fine..one thing that i still miss is my old room,right now its on rent to some one!!! :( :( : (

Have not yet informed my friends that i am in town so thatz the top most priority of my TO DO LIST.... :D

Really glad to be back home...I made my mom make bhindi (ladiesfinger) for me,i had it after ages : D..the taste was same and it still makes my mouth water.. : D..toda'ys menu< I have left it upto my mom to make me something : D

k fellas dont have much time to blog right now..have stuff's to do : D SHOPPING to be specific..lolz...love u friends..take care..have fun..spread love..bbyyyeeee : D : D

 MASALAMA...

*SAVE ENERGY*